Oh, You Fit Fit!?

I swear y’all. I ask myself this question EVERY SINGLE TIME I head to the gym. I legit sit in my car most days trying to muster up the motivation to drag my feet through those dreaded gym doors. So I ask myself, are you trying to be like.. fit fit or fake fit? 

I’m motivated by a few things lately and each day my catalyst changes. Coming from a long line of heart disease, hypertension, and diabetes, I’m working to make healthier habits a part of everyday moves for myself and my family. Though I do believe that we, as humans, are predisposed to certain illnesses, I also have no doubt that a change in “the way we always did things” can aid in bending this lifestyle curve.


I’ve never really spoken about this before, but my mother had a heart attack four years ago and that was a major turning point for me. I look at fitness now as not simply a vehicle to vanity and bomb ass selfies, but an ongoing pursuit of internal health. I’m so blessed to have my mother with me (affectionately known as Mimi) and she’s always exercised and been an advocate for being active.  And mirroring Mimi, this mama needs to be around and kickin’ for these 3 whole boys and hubby!

Sidebar-- Don’t get it twisted, in her true Jamaican mom, passive-aggressive tone, Mimi will let me know when I’ve put on a pound or two. AND she’s good for a side eye when I put one too many “pot spoons” full of rice and peas on my plate. The shade. 

Seriously though, I’m putting “me” back on the map and really attempting to hold myself accountable. Self-care tends to fall to the bottom of the totem pole when you’re a wife, mom, sister, daughter, career woman-- you know, a juggler. Investments only garner returns when one puts in that time and I’m trying to cash out. No more excuses, no more sulking in my own sorrows. Ok, so maybe I will reserve one or two days a month for… mental health/sulking because life. But all in all, getting into a groove and praying it will become my norm.

I came across a quote once by Gary Ryan Blair that says, “Self-discipline is the act of cultivation. It requires you to connect today’s actions with tomorrow’s results. There’s a season for sowing and a season for reaping.”  Umm, one time for Gary speaking DIRECTLY to me! Like sis, this is your season of sowing bih. Get it all the way together and become the best rendition of Khadeen. And, I encourage you-- claim it too for yourself.  This self-work is my time to see how far I can push myself, end my bad habit of procrastination (which I will talk about more in the future ‘cuz Lawd!) , and prepare myself for future opportunities. Because babyyyyy, the way I’ve been seeing 11:11 lately-- I’m ready for ALL THE THINGS good and great.

One good thing that came from a little procrastination today-- this blog post! So thank YOU for reading and being my stimulus in this very moment. No fake fit Kay today! Yasss!

Ok, I’m going to walk into the gym now. For real, for real! 

‘Til next time…


Kick it with me below and tell me where you are in your fit life/ best version of yourself journey!